SLIGHTLY ODWAY...

there is something seriously wrong with me. i shouldn't feel like this. another day of yuck - that's 2 in a row. i'm not saying that my day has been yuck. no, i've had lots of fun being free (yet still constricted to schedules) and hanging out with fun people. it's just that i feel like yuck and i have doubts and things don't seem to flow that way i'd like.
it's strange to have this freedom, yet still be bound by time-frames and limitations. everything seems to revolve around other people's stuff and i guess i'm a bit out of practise.

so hsc is over! but i feel so guilty for not spending my time 'studying' or whatever. there's this empty feeling that now i have no routine and no expectations of myself to fulfill.

tom's hair's growing back. it looks good.
benny c has a bleached mohawk. it's funny. it's also highly embarrassing. especially the fact that he's going to the formal like that. but that's ok - each to their own.

i have decided that i really like the aroma that perfume gives off after a day of wearing. i don't know why i put some on today, but i just did and it's been nice. it makes me feel seemingly special even though i don't actually feel very special... i was about to get rather deep just now, so i'll stop and become nicely surfaced again.

the sun is nice in the afternoon after a morning of rain. i like the way the water makes the road shine like silver. i like the way the droplets on the leaves glisten and sparkle. i like the smell. i like the way the tires can't grip and you skid around the corners - it's good fun...

so far my 'no-oil' diet has been quite unused as today i have successfully devoured a piece of mud chocolate cake, a chocolate bar, some cold chips (they had a one stage been hot), lollies, and 2 twisties (because i craved and caved). yet in a way, this diet has been successful in the fact that i haven't eaten the chocolate donut in my fridge yet and there was a definite option of having another piece of mud chocolate cake but i abstained. yet i fear that i will still have extremely unclear skin for my formal. i'll be like tom's description "I have too many pimples. I am now classified as a pink [wo]man". oh poo...

i'm tired. that's it, i'm just so dam tired.

tom's little drama group are in the church now. they're noisy. i find it funny when kids scream "shut up" - i just love the irony. i think i'll go. goodbye.