SLIGHTLY ODWAY...

some days i feel like i'm drowning in a sea of self-pity...
luke h was telling me about how satan loves (i wonder if satan is actually capable of love?) to make us feel miserable and poor. funny coz just over the last coupla days there's been this heavy feeling of wretchedness - that i'm under attack, condemnation, guiltfulness, incompitemency...
i'm sick of this world telling me i'm not good enough. i don't care anymore...

so let's start over again. with good news...
college camp was great - growing new friendships, being encouraged, and God's challenging me and changing my values.
oh and at college today we were sorted into our aural music classes (i had to do a test the other day) and i wasnt put in the lowest class. this is definitely a yay thing because i feel like it could be possible that i'm not out of my depths and i'm meant to be here at a music college where everybody's smart at music stuff - it seems that i'm not the least knowledgeable, which makes me feel better...

just went down to the library and borrowed a stack of cd's. praise God for free legal music.

and i have a mentor as of today! yay!

and i'm excited to see what God does this weekend coz there's heaps happening and i know He's at work heaps and it's been so odd to observe all the random things that have been going on that i know God has had a hand in. there have been tons and tons of strange and obscure circumstances of late that have popped up here there and everywhere, completely out of the ordinary and it's been phenominal and quite bizaar... but very encouraging to witness the Holy Spirit at work in myself and others around me...

goodo. already i feel better. complaining is such an indulgence in our insecurities. i need to remember that more often.