SLIGHTLY ODWAY...

hooray for being almost healed! it will be good to stop coughing myself to sleep and not blow blood out my nose. flee devil, you have no place here!

it's strange to come back after yet another seemingly long pause from blogging. there are many things to share, but i dont think i should, so my apologies. i think i'm turning rather secretive about my life. not that i'm hiding things, just that i'm not disclosing much info about my whereabouts and goings-on.
i love this tension - over the last few days i've found a balance that i've not yet known. it's rather exciting. life is like poetry for me at the moment. God is doing stuff that i've never experienced.

but i've found an interesting parallel - i have really bazaar/embarrassing/eyebrow-raising dreams during these times of spiritual growth. very peculiar...

i love going to my college! and then i hate it. but i'm learning so much and having a super time! but then i growl at the early mornings and cringe at my lack of discipline and sigh at my busyness and mope at my lonesomeness. but God satisfies my soul and fills my empty spaces and teaching me how to rejoice in the blessing i have been given in abundance.

something i've also come to an acceptance of is that noone else actually realises the difficulties that other people face. nobody truly wants to delve into the daily chores of another person. everyone's too busy being concerned about their own issues. the other day i had a deja vu when i was wondering if other people prayed for me. i remember a few years ago thinking that when i'm really busy and don't have time to pray, God tells other people to pray for my circumstances. it was funny to remember that naive mindset i had, and especially wondered if i still thought in a similar way. i hope not. how self-centred i've always been! so now i am challenged/convicted to pray alot more for others.

God is so funny! i love Him!